Yesterday was a very emotionally difficult day.
The very first time that I actually felt like just giving up. I just wanted to walk in the kitchen and start shoving some food in my face!
It was a very close call! It was not true hunger. I have not actually felt actual hunger in a few days. But it was the need for comfort.
This was NOTHING compared to day 6 last time though!
On my last juice feast on day 6 I had a horrid, emotional melt down. I actually felt like I was almost possessed… (I'm serious).. I felt dark and mad and angry. And VERY, very rageful. I thought I was going crazy. I felt like I was someone else and was pretty traumatized by it, I almost had like this feeling of evil in and around me.. I think with my Christian upbringing though that I just related evil to the really dark feelings that were coming up.. and the extreme anger. I knew about emotional detox but was REALLY freaked out by it. Bubbling of a very abusive relationship and pent up emotions I figured out later.
I wrote more about it here:
http://highrawweightloss.blogspot.com/2012/05/juice-feast-day-3.html
As far as my hunger I seem to do fine until about 4 o'clock and then the craving for food shows itself. I'm very fortunate that now I can actually tell the difference between true hunger and just a desire or craving to put food in my face.
My weight loss has slowed down a bit. I only lost half a pound yesterday. Not really concerned about it I'm doing this for my health also. I know that this is the best thing I can do for myself. I am going to stay off the scale for a couple of days.
I am thinking of having a spa day next week for much needed pampering.
I wish I had a friend that was into health that I could spend some bonding time with. I know it would help and we could have a girls day at the spa but my friends have either moved away or we've just grown apart and I feel the loss.
I am going to start making two or three different juices in the morning and put them in the fridge. I'm getting incredibly bored with cleaning my juicer 5 times a day!
The last time I did a juice fast day 6 was so horrible I quit the next day. I started having incredibly scary emotional detox. I felt just crazy. I felt like there was darkness and evil around me swirling around me... I have in a very abusive relationship in the past but I really thought I had worked through it all though. It was really frightening. At the time I did not know that emotional detox was even a thing!
This time around so far my juice fast has been much more uneventful. But I'm still a bit wary of the next couple of days.
Wish me luck!!
Cheers~
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