I just feel so damn good!

Since transitioning from my juice fast and getting through the mishap of not believing I HAD to transition carefully (didn't really last time but this fast was TWICE as long so going by my past experience was not the best idea.. I became VERY SICK with fever and chills and body aches and the worst headache).  Since then I've stayed high raw and am eating a higher percentage every day.

Lately something is transitioning in me. I think the Juice Feast cleaned my cells enough that I'm actually craving real hralthy food.

I went to the grocery store today and I didn't even think about cupcakes or buying crap. Whis is AMAZING because as long as I can remember walking past the pastry shop would set me off and it would take great feats of strength to not buy a half dozen cupcakes and binge on them in the car.

The days I was actually successful were hard fought but today cupcakes didn't even cross my mind... in fact I wrote this on my instagram when I got home: 

    "Raw Foods are SO HEALING! Something incredible happened to me today. I had this amazing feeling of happiness and contentment flood over me. I was just grocery shopping so doing nothing exhilarating or anything! This feeling of ease just came over me. For the first time I can remember I was totally HAPPY WITH MYSELF RIGHT HERE AND RIGHT NOW. It was a beautiful thing and I know it's Raw that is doing it. This is megga huge for me! I don't believe I've ever just been totally OK with MYSELF! I even felt love for my body.. I felt ok with how I am right now. I know I'm giving myself such an amazing gift and I know my body will repay it by shedding the weight..I'm ok with however long it takes cuz I don't have that sad desperate feeling I used to...its just GONE!!"

Today was totally 100% raw. I had fruit and nuts (soaked to release the enzymes and dehydrated) at breakfast.

Lunch was a salad at Ruby Tuesday with lemon juice as dressing.

 Dinner is a salad I made up. Red and white cabbage, oranges, pineapple, chopped almonds, green onion, red bell and a dressing with orange juice soy sauce lime juice and honey.. I have a couple more raw meals in the works. I'm making Raw sharp cheddar for taco lettuce wraps and raw vegan cashew mayo and eggplant bacon for BLT wraps soon... ;

Blarg~

Well Good Morning.

After my horrid time last night (came off my Juice Feast in the WRONG way!) I have a really sour stomach and am just achy thru my entire intestinal track.  I sure screwed myself. 

NOTE TO SELF:  make sure to transition the correct way next time.

I'm sure I'll be fine and yes I learned a lesson.  It will be valuable on my next Juice Fast.

I'm going to be eating lots of raw fruit (mostly mono meals for a couple of days) to soothe my digestive track. 

I gained one pound back.  I'm sure if I am careful I won't gain much back... I know I've read that people usually gain about 4 pounds back just from actually having the weight of the food in their system again.. I'm ok with that.

I really noticed how slow and tired I felt yesterday after eating my lunch (sauteed mixed greens, organic eggs and Parmesan).  Even though it was a very healthy meal and I sauteed a ton of greens in coconut oil it was too heavy for right off.  I was really craving fat and protein though. 

I've started walking and am proud of myself for that.  I have not had any exercise in several months.

I'm not going to be Vegan or even Veggie but I am going to EAT clean, healthy meals.  I will eat High Raw and give my body the love and attention it deserves. 

Cheers~

I Ended This Juice Fast

 I came off my juice fast last night.

I did 12 days. That is 6 days longer than my last one.  I had planned on 30 days but I'm actually okay with it I'm proud of myself, no I don't have to do 30 days right off the bat to be proud of myself.

I'm going to transition in to a Hi Raw, clean, healthy diet and start walking every single day because I want to keep the weight off that I lost.

Ialso want to walk while we're in Miami on our vaca in three weeks and I know if I start getting active it will keep me from regaining the weight as long as I eat light, clean and healthy.

I'm craving Italian of course (I was Italian in another life) and I think we should through a lot of veggies on the grill and I should get a good gluten free pasta and make a healthy pasta primavera. I also will buy a bag of gluten free rolls I think..

Mostly I'm definitely going to start walking and get in some good exercise and keep the weight off I worked so hard to lose. What a great jumpstart I got on my weightloss!!  I did an incredible thing. It is such a gift to myself!"

When I came off my juice fast last night. I ate about a third cup of mixed raisins and nuts, and a micro diet dinner, and two pieces of dark chocolate. The Genius was so sweet and helped talk me down because I was really hungry!

My mind is really going strong this morning, I'm so clear headed! I still feel absolutely amazing. I actually had feelings of euphoria on my walk this morning and YES I STARTED WALKING!

I remember reading that the best way to maintain weight after losing it is exercise. I'm going to start walking everyday. I felt incredible on my walk today.

When I got back in, I  ate a little raw fruit, bits of watermelon, pineapple and mango as I made a nice bowl of it for the Genius this morning.

Then I ate a good deal of watermelon!  OMG it was incredible.

My eating strategy is that I'm going to eat high raw now. Fruit in the morning, raw veggies and salad type stuff or a salad sandwich with healthy bread (I'll have to figure out a good bread or wrap for lunch.. I want to continue on with the green juices occasionally. & I want to cook healthy vegan dinners occasionally at night. I want to also have gluten free dairy free Amy's (and other organic) micro meals in the freezer for emergencies.

I am absolutely NOT going to start eating crap.

I am also not going to start counting calories. I have a very healthy mindset right now and will work at constantly making healthy choices in my eating. I plan on eating less and eating much more healthy. I feel very good about myself and my weight loss accomplishments so far and I really do believe with work I can maintain this mentality.

The gift I gave myself of my juice fast was incredible and it has really focused me on health, well-being, and I want to stay high raw because I love the clarity in the rush of euphoria that I get occasionally.

4pm
Well today has been a wonderfully incredible day! I have so much energy. I mopped the floor and did a load of dishes and did a little laundry and got down on my hands and knees and scrubbed my kitchen gel mat! I had nothing but fruit until about 3 o'clock and then I made myself a really healthy meal.

 I put about a tablespoon of coconut oil in a pan sauteed two HUGE handful of mixed organic greens, added two whole organic eggs and about an ounce or so of shredded fresh Parmesan cheese....

I know I said I wasn't going to count calories and I'm not writing anything down but I found myself ending up my approximate calories for the day in my mind... old habits die hard!.

I feel good I am noticing right now I'm a little tired after the egg/cheese/greens meal but it just goes to show you how much energy digestion takes!

I didn't even eat all of my greens and eggs. I gave about a third of it to my Puggie Suki. I want to become the type of person that does not eat all of my food. I want to leave food on my plate. I want to eat smaller amounts of food. I will. I will eat smaller amounts of food!

DINNER:  well after my successful re-feeding of my small Diet dinner in a quarter cup of mixed nuts and raisins last night, I thought somehow I had successfully dodged a bullet.

I've read the correct way to transition but of course I was too stubborn to do that. Well tonight since I thought I was fine I had The Genius bring home my fav Thai salad from Panera.... (no peanut sauce or dressing).

The night before when I ate my little diet dinner even though I didn't have any pain I felt my intestines come back alive all the way from my stomach to my rear end! I had this vibrating and rumbling all the way through my entire body. Really weird.

Since it wasn't painful I just overlooked it and thought, "that's it? That was not bad"!!  Today when I had raw fruit I was fine and with my sauteed spinach and eggs and cheese, I was fine.. But last night when I ate my rather large salad my body exploded! I had projectile diarrhea and pain!

I am not sure if it was because it was a rather large meal, was or something actually in the salad or the bread. All I know is OMG next time come off the fast in the correct way OMG!!!

I am going back to very simple eating and raw fruits vegetables and salad for a while.  I think mono meals of fruit for today... I'm craving banana and I know with my inflammatory bowel banana is a great, soothing choice.

Live and learn!!!



Oh and lookie at my new little blingy.  I LOVE stars (they are always represented well in MY jewelry line.)  I very rarely buy jewelry from other designers but I love nice gold jewelry and I don't work with 14K (yet) so when I see something really special I usually have to have it.  Lately I'm really into delicate, fine chains for my gold necklaces.  I found this lovely little 14K gold necklace!  It's got a tiny 1/4" pave diamond star:

She makes them in 14K yellow, white or rose gold if you are interested.  She also specializes in sweet, delicate fine jewelry.  I really like her style, her web site is here:  Zoe Chicco Jewelry

Cheers!~

Juice Fast Day 12

I've lost 12 pounds!

INSOMNIA... I've been waking up really early in the morning the last 3 days. This morning at 4AM.

HEART PALPS... I've been having heart palps the last few days...

 I did some research and found on curezone that its fairly normal when fasting. Apparently it has to do with adrenaline and stress hormones being released in your body.

Early this AM on the way to the bathroom I put my hands on my waist and was very surprised how I could definitely tell its a good deal smaller. I've been waiting for something like this. Something that feels real. Change that is definite. It seems like I've dieted for years now. I can't remember the last time I felt something that truly made me feel like I was on the road to successfully losing weight.

Today I feel very very empty!!!! I'm a little light headed and really looking forward to my juice. I've been craving more fruit juice during the day. I have found for some reason the green juice does not give me much of an energy boost. I know it's incredible for all of its minerals though!

JUICE TODAY: watermelon honeydew lime juice - OMG it was awesome and I feel a little better. Then I had organic black cherry juice this type is bottled... I like it diluted with lime Lacroix seltzer! Then a little later I had a green juice with an extra Apple in it. At dinner tonight I'm going to make an extra spicy v8 style juice.

REWARDS: I ordered myself my favorite Summer perfume. Its from Fresh.com. It is the Fresh Sugar perfume. I also ordered a new terry cloth skirt in a pretty icy blue turquoise from Talbots.

I hate my thighs! I know its not considered correct these days to Dislike your body but there it is.

I like wearing skirts that come right to my knees. They camouflage the size of my thighs and my legs from the knee down look nice. I tend to wear these type of skirts really often!

I love a skirt in the Summertime for sure!! 

I am feeling pretty good but I definitely I'm feeling hungrier then I did a few days ago.

Juice Fast Day 11

Well yesterday ended up being one bitch of a day at least from the late afternoon on!

It all started in late afternoon when I went into our kitchen pantry to get a new bottle of my organic tart cherry juice (this stuff is so amazing they should name a country after it! Google it.)

Something about seeing a carton of raisins instantly set me off into a whirlwind of cravings!
My addicted is such an interesting thing! I can be tricky and sneaky in justifying my desires for food. I remember thinking "at least its vegan and healthy... I'm doing so much better than I was before! I'm craving Raisins instead of cupcakes... Good God woman you are so hard on yourself!! It's ok, eat some freaking raisins and we will call it a 10 day juice feast!"

LOL!!!

Ugg.
  it was hard! And I'm so glad it's a new day. Today my energy is a little bit better and I managed to actually get out and go for A 15 minute walk!!!........  I haven't felt like going for a walk in weeks.








DETOX:   my skin is so soft! I also have this very interesting mental clearness.  I have also noticed that I am much more cooler natured even chilly at times then I ever have been. I am able to keep my AC on 77! Whereas in the past it had to be on 70!

Cheers and juice on!

South Beach Vaca

My amazing husband also known here as "The Genius", just surprised me with a vacation in Miami to celebrate the end of my 30 day juice feast! I am so excited.

The hotel we're going to stay at is a Loews Hotel. They are very pet friendly and I love to take our Pug Sukiyaki, he's such a show off.

They have fresh squeezed juice, also sell to Suja and Evolution juices in the hotel and I can eat all the raw fruit I can handle there. I see a huge bowl of fresh fruit for breakfast every morning room service in my future!!!




I have always wanted to go to the Coconut Grove organic farmers market! They are supposed to have some of the most amazing fruit there, which is wonderful for someone into eating lots and lots of raw food!

I also plan on having sushi while I'm there. It is only thing I have truly missed since I started my juicefeast!

Juice Fast Day 10 !!!!!

Yesterday was actually fairly easy but last night last night was really, really hard... worst night since the beginning.

 I was really irritable, really itchy (need to remember to dry brush more often) and had crampy, restless leg all night.

I had to take magnesium and calcium even though I know I shouldn't. I also had a headache and my sinuses were slammed shut.

 I know it's my body going into deeper detox so I just kept telling myself it's a good thing! It really sucked though!

DETOX: I spent 45 minutes in the sauna today ie: my backyard in the Orlando Sun! Working on getting out any toxins I can today.

 I haven't been posting my juices because everybody is different and what I like you might not like. There are so many juice recipes online anyway.

I am usually drinking a fruit juice in the morning most of the time it is grapefruit and orange or grapefruit and mango.

Then I usually have a couple of green juices through the day and a large serving of coconut water.

Dinner time I usually have a salad type juice with no fruits or a homemade V8 style juice.

I've been occasionally having iced tea during the day and a hot herbal tea at night. I've been drinking sparkling water and sometimes I add organic bottled grape juice or organic bottled black cherry juice for just a hint of taste.

 I have been thinking how incredibly amazing I am going to feel on day 31. My self esteem and self confidence is going to be through the roof... a gift of well being to myself. I'm really looking forward to going from self conscious to self confidence.

Juice Fast Day 9 !

Well I am very low energy today... Actually I feel like I normally do. Maybe a tiny bit better  then I normally do but I keep waiting for more energy! I have spent the last couple of years fatigued all the time.

 I am getting days I do have better energy and Saturday walked hours at the mall. I surprised myself with how much energy I had but yesterday one hour shopping at Walmart and I had to go to bed...

 Yesterday I also did not do well at making myself juices I just wanted to be total slug all day.

I got on the scale this morning and had only lost .2 pound one. I really don't think I will slow down with my weight loss this much until later on. Maybe it is because I didn't have enough juice or maybe it was all the running around on the weekend.

 It's much easier to be regimented with my juice during the week. On the weekends I tend to want to do my own thing or be spontaneous or just basically be lazy!

I also have to remember that I am actually doing this for my health much more than just weight loss.  I wanted to note a couple of improvements that I've already noticed.

 I used to have right hip pain whenever I took a step. Now my right hip no longer hurts.

My pain that I'm sure was nerve pain shooting down the front of my left thigh has diminished greatly. And seriously! I lost nine and a half pounds in one week! When in the hell has it ever happened before?. Well except for my last juice fast!

Part of me thinks I should stay off the scale but another analitical part of me wants to chart my weight every day. I think as long as I keep my mind right when I do get on the scale and look at it just as documentation and don't get all emotional about the scale, I'll be ok.

For breakfast I made a mango and grapefruit juice that is luscious! The mango doesn't juice incredibly well. I actually ran a little bit of water through the juicer to get the rest of the mango puree out. It really does just sort of puree it. I used two grapefruit and 3 mango and about a half a cup of water and it made 30 oz.

 DETOX! I spent 45 minutes in the sauna today, ie: my backyard in the Orlando Sun! Working on getting out any toxins I can today.

 It is 3 p.m. almost and I'm really not hungry just thirsty! I've had approximately 450 to 500 calories so far today in fruit juices. I had my grapefruit/mango this morning and then I had about a cup and a half of organic bottled grape juice water down. They're both very full of calories ..

 It's strange I feel very, very empty but I just don't feel much hunger.

 I will drink some coconut water in a few minutes and then a little while make a nice green veggie juice with no fruit.

I bought broccoli and bok choy to give it a shot with carrots and celery and cucumber and maybe spinach. A nice salad juice!

I wanted to also note that I have actually lost 20 pounds since January.

 I feel pretty good and I'm glad it's a new week. Yay I'm on to week two!

Wish me luck.

Cheers~

Juice Fast Day 8 !

This seems to be getting a bit easier every day now.

No longer dealing with hunger or cravings really.

 OK wow! Yesterday was an amazing day.. firstly I'm into my next smaller size jeans. A real 16. Not woman's 16.. I wore them to the mall yesterday.. fit perfectly.

So freaking proud of myself!!!

Yesterday was also my first day out dealing with being around food temptations and I blew myself away with my control..hubs even set in front of me and ate pizza (he had thought he would do juice with me till dinner and I made him a huge juice to have for lunch but instead he had to eat solid food because he got shaky and dizzy and sweaty with hypoglycemia) I set there and was fine! I just tried my best to look at other things and stores/people around us until he was done.

My energy was pretty fair for all the walking. I was planning on going to the store on the way home but ran out of energy and had to get home and rest.

I AM NOT DRINKING ENOUGH JUICE!!

I can tell when I do force myself to drink more juice I do better energy wise but my hunger is so low all I crave is water. I have to force juice though because I need the nutrition.

DETOX: I'm so stinky! LOL! Seriously though I used to hardly ever need to use deodorant and now I need it twice a day!
Woke in the middle of the night to pee and noticed my sinus was slammed shut and my left eye was all weepy and watery.
I also have some fullness and discomfort under my right breast. I know my liver is there so I'm sure it has to do with the cleanse.
These detox symptoms are nothing compared to the past!

REWARDS: I got to reward myself for my awesomeness yesterday! A new Bose Bluetooth Speaker for my Pandora on my tablet (or phone). I've wanted one for like a year to listen to in my studio while I work. I am a jewelry designer and music really inspires me. We blasted some Martin Garrix Animals when we got home. #GoodTimes

 I'm encouraged and happy this AM.

Cheers~

Juice Feast Day 7

Wow I made it through day 6!

On my last juice feast day 6 was such a freaking horrid day that I ended up going to bed early just so I could end it!  I had some scary emotional detox.

I didn't know at the time there even was such a thing so it was extra fucked up. I had this feeling of evil swirling around me and I felt all this hate in me bubbling up.

Now normally I am so calm and you know, live with flowers in my hair and hug trees and run barefoot and blissful but I was in a very abusive, emotionally devistating relationship many years ago.  Now I'm married to "The Genius" and crazy loved and supported and thought I had worked through all that sadness in my past so when that happened I didn't get it.

Now another year older and lots of studying just what detox can bring I was ready... but so far there has not been much!

I've slowly been working on getting more healthy over the last year and had been High Raw on and off for a couple of months, (with fits and starts on Raw for a few years!) and I've decided my juice feast seems to be much less eventful because I've already detoxed a bit before I started.

I'm hoping to go much deeper over the next few days and heal my body of a couple of health issues.

JUICE:
Yesterday was a bit boring.  Just your average green juice.  I did find out I don't like juiced Kiwi which really surprised me because it's one of my fav fruits!  It just had this strange acrid taste to me
 I did juice it in the skin, I had actually read that the skin is edible so I thought why not.. but blarg!

Juice Fast Day 6!!!

Well I am so proud of myself!

Yesterday was a very emotionally difficult day.

The very first time that I actually felt like just giving up. I just wanted to walk in the kitchen and start shoving some food in my face!

It was a very close call! It was not true hunger. I have not actually felt actual hunger in a few days. But it was the need for comfort.

This was NOTHING compared to day 6 last time though!

On my last juice feast on day 6 I had a horrid, emotional melt down. I actually felt like I was almost possessed… (I'm serious).. I felt dark and mad and angry.  And VERY, very rageful.  I thought I was going crazy.  I felt like I was someone else and was pretty traumatized by it, I almost had like this feeling of evil in and around me.. I think with my Christian upbringing though that I just related evil to the really dark feelings that were coming up.. and the extreme anger.  I knew about emotional detox but was REALLY freaked out by it.  Bubbling of a very abusive relationship and pent up emotions I figured out later.


I wrote more about it here:

http://highrawweightloss.blogspot.com/2012/05/juice-feast-day-3.html

As far as my hunger I seem to do fine until about 4 o'clock and then the craving for food shows itself. I'm very fortunate that now I can actually tell the difference between true hunger and just a desire or craving to put food in my face.

My weight loss has slowed down a bit. I only lost half a pound yesterday. Not really concerned about it I'm doing this for my health also. I know that this is the best thing I can do for myself. I am going to stay off the scale for a couple of days.

I am thinking of having a spa day next week for much needed pampering.

I wish I had a friend that was into health that I could spend some bonding time with. I know it would help and we could have a girls day at the spa but my friends have either moved away or we've just grown apart and I feel the loss.

I am going to start making two or three different juices in the morning and put them in the fridge. I'm getting incredibly bored with cleaning my juicer 5 times a day!

The last time I did a juice fast day 6 was so horrible I quit the next day. I started having incredibly scary emotional detox. I felt just crazy. I felt like there was darkness and evil around me swirling around me... I have in a very abusive relationship in the past but I really thought I had worked through it all though. It was really frightening. At the time I did not know that emotional detox was even a thing!

 This time around so far my juice fast has been much more uneventful. But I'm still a bit wary of the next couple of days.

Wish me luck!!

Cheers~

Juice Feast Day 5

Yesterday was really not difficult. I was not crazy hungry. I do stay pretty thirsty and drink a lot of juice.

DETOX: I'm having some detox symptoms. My entire body is itching. I know our skin is responsible for like 40% of our bodies actual detox so I need to do the dry brushing. I just ordered a Mio body brush.  http://www.mioskincare.com/the-mio-body-brush.html 

Not a lot to really report, I feel fairly good..my energy is only a tiny bit better but I know it will improve. 

Excited about the next few days and I'm happy that I'm doing something lovely for myself and my health.  

I plan on getting a lot done around the house today so we will see how much my energy holds out. I want to start back doing my daily walks.

Juice Fast Day 4

Day Four of My Juice Fast... really I should call it a feast because I'm not limiting juice and drinking lots.

Yesterday, strangely I found myself hardly feeling ANY hunger but I'm pretty much craving juice constantly. I am feeling very hopeful now but I can go the 30 days.

I think the key for me is going to be drinking plenty of juice. Also I need to keep it interesting and keep trying new juices.

 I decided to get out my nice crystal glasses and drink my juice out of them! I know sometimes I'm mental but it really makes it more special to me... Like I am treating myself !

Also I got out my good China teacups for my hot tea in the evenings. 

DETOX: last night was but very, very low energy night for me. (My hubs was so sweet and offered to go to the grocery store for me on his way home from work last night)!! I ended up going to bed at 8 p.m. which is about 3 hours earlier than normal.

 So far I have not had any more headaches (since day one) which surprises me because last time I did this I couldn't see straight for a full week!

 I was doing a high raw foods diet for about 6 weeks before I started this... I had already lost about 18 pounds and maybe I was already fairly well detoxed. I don't know I'm still expecting it to come!

 MY FAVORITE JUICE SO FAR: Kale, romaine, celery, green apple, cucumber, parsley and lemon. So delish!!

 The hubs surprised me and brought home kiwi fruit last night. I'm going to have to figure out a way to use them in juice. I was thinking cucumber mint and kiwi with maybe spinach or romaine. YUM!

 He also brought home 3 young coconuts!!!

I LOVE fresh coconut water and will freeze the coconut meat until after my fast...if hubs does not eat it all first *grin*

 I have found myself so looking forward to my hot tea in the afternoon that I decided to order a couple more herbal teas. I found a company called Rishi that has organic herbal teas. I'm looking forward to getting them in!

Juice Fast Day 3!!!

Check out this gorgeous ruby red juice!!!!

Beet, tomato, romaine, green apple, cucumber and celery juice!

 Yesterday was actually not that difficult. I did have more hunger pains than the day before but I just made myself drink more juice.

 I have also been having about a pint or two of coconut water. I like to save it for the afternoon.

 I drank 3 quarts of juice (Mostly green juices except grapefruit/orange for breakfast) and coconut water yesterday..

I am a little concerned about the sugar in the juices and coconut water so I am checking my blood sugar every morning right now. So far so good.

WEIGHT: Most amazingly I have lost 5 pounds in 2 days. I keep reading about people that lost an average of a pound a day. I'm wonder how I will do...

I also am a little concerned about holding out for 30 days but I know that I can do it!!

I keep reminding myself of the hundreds maybe thousands of people that has successfully finished juice fasts. Many even 60 or 90 days.

It is encouraging to me and I know others can do it so can I!!

HUNGER:  I seem to be a little less hungry today. It is only about 1:30 though. So far I've just had my orange / ruby red grapefruit juice for breakfast. I have the juice from  two grapefruits and three oranges. I've been drinking a lot of Pellegrino too. But I'm really not hungry for lunch yet so I'm holding out until I am. I do already have the juice waiting for me in the refrigerator so I don't find myself starving and then have to take the time to make a juice! I learned about that the hard way!

Last night I was really craving something hot which is strange because it's already so crazy hot here in Orlando but I had to have some hot tea. It was a nice fruity herbal tea. I also decided that having hot tea at night is definitely going to help me. So I have ordered some more herbal teas from Rishi tea. I love that they are organic!

 DETOX: no really bad detox symptoms yet except a little bit of a headache and sinus. My energy is low but I do know it will get better soon! I also expect to be dealing with detox soon!

Juice Feast Day Two

Well today has been an easier day than yesterday at least so far. 

I lost 3 pounds and I'm thrilled with that. I have been drinking lots of juice today working to keep my hunger at bay.

I am definitely more hungry today than I was yesterday.

I have caught myself a couple of times today thinking I must be crazy putting myself through this but I know I really need this. I need it for my health and I really need to get some of this weight off!

I have not had much in the way of headaches or anything today. I do have some of that white yuckey coating on my tongue so I know I am detoxing.

I'm sure as the days go on I'll be confronted with some seriously detox issues and actually I welcome them. 

All and all the day has been fairly uneventful. My juices have been pretty much nothing extraordinary really. I did enjoy a Ruby grapefruit and orange juice this morning the rest have been green drinks and home made V8. 

I made a red grape, celery and cucumber juice for a snack a little while ago and while I was making it I thought this was going to be luscious but really it was just ok. I was a little disappointed .

Right now I am enjoying a hot herbal tea.  Its funny normally I'm hot all the time but today I have the house AC set on 78 and I'm actually chilly!

Juice Feast Day One

This is going to be a short post because I already feel like 10 kinds of hell.

Can't believe I'm already detoxing and it's only day one and it's not even nighttime yet.

 I did eat only fruit and a salad yesterday so I might have a bit of a jump on detox.

I knew I was fading fast so I went ahead and made my dinner juice and a dessert fruit juice for later.

Juices today:
2 cups lime/ginger hot tea with my hubs while he had his AM coffee. Litre green juice (my very fav. From previous juice fast..lemon..mixed organic greens..celery..cucumber..parsley and green apple.  A litre of coconut water (grocery store) A couple La Croix mineral water Home made V8 (litre) Watermelon juice 16 oz for dessert.

Went to bed at 9PM!  a couple hours earlier than normal.

Starting 30 Day Juice Fast Tomorrow

I will call it a FEAST because I will drink juice any time I am hungry.

 The longest I've ever made it was 6-7 days. I had such horrid emotional detox on day 6-7 (can't remember exact day) that it scared the hell out of me!!  At the time I was not really aware that bad emotional detox is possible and now I'm prepared.

REASONS:  I want do list these reasons for myself for the future. I'm sure this will not be easy and I will need to remind self of the problems I'm dealing with.

 Of course I want to lose weight. I've wanted to lose weight for over 10 years. Mentally it has shifted for me though because now I have health issues. I'm borderline diabetic and I have hip pain and most frightening is the strange pain running down the front of my left thigh, sometimes it feels like an electrical shock and I think it's probably either nerve damage or the beginnings of neuropathy. Either way it scares the shit out of me.

The Beach.. I miss feeling comfortable in my skin when we're at the beach. I grew up in a beach town. I now hate the way my body looks so much that I totally cover myself up and I'm so uncomfortable everytime we have a beach day. I'm really really sick of that. I want to feel free and confident in the way I look.

I also have no energy. I'm a total slug. I'm depressed. I go for days and days without leaving my house (home based business) except to go to the grocery store and if I can talk my husband into going to the grocery store for me I don't have to leave it all!.  It's getting worse.

I'm tired of constantly letting myself down and never keeping my self promises.  I've promised myself for 10 years I'm getting this weight off.  Is there anything more sad than lying to yourself over and over?

So I'm taking today to get ready, clean my fridge and kitchen and shop for lots of veggies and fruits to get me started.

 "The Genius" (my hubs who actually is a genius engineer) has agreed to grocery shop for me the first 10 days or until I'm through the worst detox.