Taking longer than I thought but I'll get back on track!

We have so much food in the house that it's going to be another week or so but I am starting to add more fruits and veggies already.  I am going to transition slowly this time and not push myself so much to be 100% raw right off... I do see myself getting back to very high raw and also doing a 10 day juice feast or so but it's going to happen slower this time.  I can't get fanatical.  It's a problem for me!

I did order my truly raw almonds and walnuts today from a grove in CA.. I order them from Bremner's Roadside Stand.. http://shop.organicalmondsraw.com/

I am going to also slowly order other supplies.. I will need raw cashews and also other things.. I have to order online.. I like NaturalZing.com

I have "gone raw" three times in the past.. mostly in the Summers (last three years) and loved it most of the time.  In trying to find out why it never stuck.. or rather why I never stuck with it, I came to the conclusion that when it got tough I always talked myself out of it and never asked for help.  I will ask for help LOTS this time..

I also think I put too much pressure on myself to be very, very high raw and when I would have two or three days "off" it ended up slowly being more and more until I had talked myself out of Raw.

It IS allot of work.. It is expensive.  I am worth every $$ and every ounce of effort.. I have to be.
PLUS I need to lose 100 pounds.  Period.  I know eating a high Raw diet is the way to do it and the weight is such a hard thing to deal with.. I am so sick of hurting, my body aches.. my hips and back ache constantly.  I am also sad most of the time and have really gotten to where I don't leave the house often. 

I know I am dealing with depression and I remember how blissed out I felt on Raw the last couple of times.. once I made it thru the horrid freaking detox.  I am lucky that I work from home so I can just go lay in bed if I need to.. and I will.

I am going out of town May 4-6 so I will set May 8th for my "official" start day but I am slowly eating more raw already.  This AM I weighed 227 pounds.. wanted to get the down so at least I know where I am starting.

More later!